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[Thursday
January 1st, 2009
4:27pm] |
so now it's 2009.
i don't feel any different, nor did i really think i would.
so much happened in 2008 and i'm fairly glad that it's over.
2009 gives me a fresh start.
in the coming year i hope to find a boy who really cares about me, get my act together/go back to school, and hopefully move out.
out with the old & in with the new.
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[Tuesday
July 29th, 2008
4:53pm] |
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mini life update.
i've got two jobs now.
one at dsw outside the solomon pond mall;
the other is at the forever 21 opening in the auburn mall.
me and freddy broke up this past weekend.
i still don't know how i feel about it.
he wants to just be friends for now and see where it goes.
i don't know if i can handle just being friends.
i'm supposed to be going to myrtle beach with my parents aug 5-10.
who knows if that's going to happen though.
it should be a fun time, it's gonna be a long drive though!
i'm also going to this is hardcore in philly with heather & kurt aug 21-24.
that is going to be a blast. i can't wait!
i'm supposed to get del's lemonade tonight & hangout with ryan.
hopefully that works out.
oh. friday, hammer bros, cruel hand, the bonus army are playing at welfare.
saturday, the bonus army, energy, debaser, can't stand losing are playing at the qvcc.
come to both shows and hangout with me!
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[Friday
May 30th, 2008
12:25pm] |
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wow, it's been a little less than a year since the last time i wrote in this. crazy!
my freshman year at the university of new england is finished, it went by so fast.
i'm not sure if i'll be going back there in the fall though, i'm questioning my major so who knows.
life has been pretty awesome lately though.
i've met some really awesome people at school and back at home;
and a boy, who is probably one of the better things to happen to me as of late.
i've still be going to way too many shows, and i'm traveling farther for every one.
i might go to brooklyn next week & then the 15th i'm definitely going to new jersey.
so if anyones reading this/wants to go, let me know!
i guess that's really it. my life isn't that interesting.
someone come hangout with me and let's go to the beach!
xo.
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[Thursday
August 23rd, 2007
3:42am] |
i don't even know why i bother doing this.
no one reads this shit anymore.
it's 3:42 and i'm awake.
something is seriously wrong with that.
anyway. summer has been fantastic.
so many good shows & good times with good friends.
that's a lot of good, i know.
i leave for school on september 2nd.
i'm going to the university of new england, it's in maine.
about 20 minutes from oob, and like 2 hrs from worc.
IT'S NOT THAT BAD. so don't say it is.
so i guess that's it.
hang with me before i go to school.
probably won't be back til thanksgiving,
unless people wanna come pick me up.
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[Saturday
June 2nd, 2007
1:08pm] |
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wow.
i'm officially a high school graduate.
that's crazyyyyy!
i never update this anymore. so lame.
sunday- went over jeff's & hung out with him, rob, fudge, liz, nicky & chris berg. watched mallrats & ate cookies.
tuesday- high meadows senior trip. i got my picture taken with paris hilton and ate lots of cotton candy.
wednesday- arcade show. talked to radical alex for the longest time. ate reeses klondike bars. took photobooths. played ddr against slick nick, and me and jenn dominated the zombie game.
thursday- went on the harbor cruise, best night ever. danced to sandstorm & journey all night long. then went over jeff's with jenn, mikey d, fudge, & the dudes from attitude.
friday- high school graduation! oh man. took way too many pictures & got too many flowers. then went to hampton beach with jenn, danielle, my sister, ak, nicky, thano & his friends.
today i'm going to hang with joshie, jenn & mikey d. then probably go to briana/elise's party later on.
tomorrow i've got to work from 10:30 to 6:30. what a bummer!
you should make plans to hangout with me.
i've got till august to do nothing!
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[Tuesday
May 22nd, 2007
2:29pm] |
today was my last day of high school.
wow. my official graduation is june 1.
that's crazy, where did these last four years go?
graduation party @ my house on june 16th.
let me know if you want to come.
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[Thursday
March 1st, 2007
4:09pm] |
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so life, yeah hm. it's been alright.
i've seen better times, but not too much to complain about.
basically, i can't decide on where i want to go to school.
to my suprise i've actually been accepted to more than one school.
i've gotten into the following:
university of hartford
university of new england (which is in maine)
university of new haven
and i didn't get accepted to uconn.
which was a total bummer, because i really wanted to go there.
i'm still waiting to hear from roger williams and bridgewater state.
i think if i get accepted, i'll probably go to bridgewater.
britta applied there too, and we decided we'd get an apartment together
that would be so awesome to live with my best friend.
in other news, i've been so broke lately.
i get paid bi-weekly, which sucks so bad.
i need to find a new job, in the worst way.
if anyone can help me out, i'd be so grateful.
tomorrow we'll hopefully have a snowday
or atleast a delay, like two hours would be nice.
i'm not looking forward to march, we have no days off!
annnd tomorrow night is going to be fun.
bane, have heart, ambitions, down to nothing,
the geeks, & maintain in cambridge.
i love fun shows. i hope lots of kids end up going.
so yeah, i don't have anything that interesting to update on
but i was bored, so i figured why not.
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[Monday
February 19th, 2007
2:03pm] |
1. i’ll respond with something random about you
2. i’ll challenge you to try something
3. i’ll pick a color that i associate with you
4. i’ll tell you something i like about you
5. i’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. i’ll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. i’ll ask you something i’ve always wanted to ask you
8. if i do this for you, you must post this on yours
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[Wednesday
February 14th, 2007
9:01pm] |
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i'm so sick right now it's ridiculous.
i woke up this morning at 5am with a fever of 103.
sweeeeet.
i had to spend valentine's day at home coughing and sneezing all day.
on the bright side though, life has been pretty good lately.
things are finally working out in my favor.
hopefully i'm not reading too far into things, like i usually tend to do.
it's almost february vacation.
friday at 2pm is the official start.
so make plans with me!
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[Sunday
January 28th, 2007
9:37pm] |
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i never ever write in this thing. sometimes i wonder why i even have it anymore. so this weekend went from awful to better.
friday was the day from hell. i had been fighting with my dad from 6:30AM till about 5:00PM. i figured once i was 18 that things would be different, you know, stay out later, get piercings & tattoos, and not be able to get grounded. christ i couldn't have been more wrong. when i got home from school another fight broke out with my mom and basically i told her that i hated living here almost as much as i hate my dad. for the past year me and my dad haven't ever been on ''good'' terms. i mean we'll get along, but more times than not, we fight. so i spent the entire night crying and hyperventilating. my dad told me he wants to kick me out because that way, he won't have to worry about me anymore. i guess that's sweet of a father to say. i made my mom cry too because i told her i hated living there. all my parents do is fight because of me. she's normally the one i can go to, but we're not even talking anymore.
saturday i figured things would go back to normal but they didnt. i got in another fight with my mom, this time about money. i have $112 in the bank. that's so awful. i need to come up with $200 for wednesday as another payment for the disney trip and i dont see that happening. she got mad because i wanted to use money to get my monroe done. and i wanted it just because i could do it. im old enough to sign for myself, it was something i wanted to do for myself. so i stormed out of the house as usual. the bank ended up being closed. which sucked. so as somewhat of a joke, i texted matt and asked if i could borrow $60 till monday and then go to the bank and pay him back. because he's so fantastic, he gave me the $60 as a late birthday present. so i got my monroe done at miller cotton's and britta got her lip. we're cute. after that i went and hung out with matt. went to the qvcc with all the boys and alyson. froze our asses off in the hallway for like an hour because we refused to pay to get into such a shitty show. then went to the shrewsbury lanes to play pool. then back to matt's to watch 'green street hooligans'. it was a pretty good movie before i fell asleep.
and today everythings still the same. my parents aren't talking to me. i had to work today and got in a fight with this older lady i work with for the second time this week. she's so ridiculous. i'm hopefully quitting soon. i can't take much more of quiznos. honestly! after work i went out with bryanna and danielle. went to savers and the java hut then up to millbury to take pictures haha.
tomorrow i'm going job hunting with bryanna.
hopefully something good comes of it!
make plans to do something with me this week.
i need some posi in my life.
i've got a sweeet weekend coming up though.
friday: guns up! last show. i'm so pumped!
saturday: vanna, francine, 40sls, & listen up! at the qvcc.
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[Tuesday
January 16th, 2007
7:10am] |
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happy 18th birthday to me!
it's finally here.
yet, it doesn't feel any different.. YET
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[Tuesday
January 2nd, 2007
8:16pm] |
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please come to one or both of these shows.
it would mean the world to me.
i'm trying to raise as much money as possible for this amazing cause.
www.invisiblechildren.com
INVISIBLE CHILDREN BENEFIT SHOW
SATURDAY JANUARY 6TH
DOORS @ 5
SHOW @ 5:30
$10 QVCC
16 GREENWOOD STREET
WORCESTER, MA AMBITIONS
ENERGY
CRUEL HAND
THE HOMEFRONT
LISTEN UP!
STAY ALIVE
I RISE
HANDS IN
ANDDDDDDDDDDD.
INVISIBLE CHILDREN BENEFIT SHOW
SATURDAY JANUARY 13TH
DOORS @ 5
SHOW @ 5:30
$10 QVCC
16 GREENWOOD STREET
WORCESTER, MA
CDC
CROSS THE LINE
FEW AND PROUD
PLAY GIRL!
40 SLS
LIVING HELL
GIVE EM HELL
FIGHT TIL THE END
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[Monday
January 1st, 2007
1:09am] |
fuck you 2k6.
this year better bring amazing things. seriously.
shitty new years, what else is new.
hope everyone else had an awesome time! yeahh.
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[Saturday
November 18th, 2006
11:48pm] |
i never write in this anymore. unless it's to post some stupid survey or questionaire thing. i guess it's time to vent though.
i've been grounded for almost a month now. now for all of you that dont know, before you frigging ask what happened. yes i had a party while my parents were gone. yes it was stupid. yes i got drunk. yes i hooked up with a kid that i probably shouldnt have. and yes i probably would do it all over again. i've missed out on so much it's ridiculous. i miss my friends and i miss going out constantly. all i do now is work or sit on the computer, i hate it.
i wish i had a boyfriend now, i've gone through my phase of just hooking up with whomever and i'm over it. i need someone that i know will be there whenver to come over and watch movies or cuddle or go out to eat. and not just be down to get drunk and hookup. dont get me wrong, thats fun, but i've moved on. apparently shit has been going around the 'scene' about me too. kids need to grow up. yes, i kiss boys. ohhhh shoot. no need to go run your mouth and tell everyone you know. i hate when my ex boyfriend calls me to inform me of who i've done shit with. and then gets mad at me for it. it's my buisness. i need to get my priorities in order. i need to give second chances and hopefully in return get some chances back of my own. it's getting to the point where seeing couples together depresses me. what the fuck? i'm almost 18 years old, i should be enjoying my life not getting sad and having my stomach ache when i see two other people kiss. i miss that so much though, i miss being in a relationship. they never ever work out for me. and i always try my hardest but clearly, that doesn't really do much.
and then college is soon. i'm freaking out over that one. a senior in highschool with about 6 months left to go. how crazy is that? im scared to go to college, two of my main choices are two hours away. no one will ever come visit, and if i do have my car, i'll probably never come home because it's so far. as much as i say i want to leave worcester, i'm afraid that i won't last out there and i'll end up transfering back because i miss my crew. i don't think i'm ready to step out of my little auburn bubble and face the real world yet. that is, if i even get into those schools. fucking around throughout highschool really isnt the most intelligent thing to do, dont get me wrong, my grades are alright, but i'm not the smartest kid if you looked at my grades on paper. i'm even more scared of not getting accepted somewhere. i don't want to have to spend my life in worcester doing some mediocre job. i want to actually make something of myself and be something. i dont want to be like my parents who didnt get a college education, or my dad who didn't graduate. i neeed to move on and grow. and going to college means losing my best friend. britta isn't looking at schools around here. she wants to go to pennsylvania. what the hell. i try to convince her every day that she doesnt need to go so far to get a good education, but im afraid that no matter what i say, she wont change her mind. i dont know how i'll go to school without her. let alone without danielle being 5 minutes away. girls there when i need anything i just drive down a few streets and shes there to listen. now shes growing up and getting a job and has no time for anything. i know being away from her is going to be most difficult.
okay. so what have we ended up with here?
i need to start dating, and get into some form of a relationship.
i need to not fuck around with school and actually do homework.
i need to apply to colleges and fucking ace my sat's.
i need to not give a shit about the drama that surrounds worcester
AND i need to not care what people may think about me.
pce lj. maybe i'll write in you again in another two months.
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[Thursday
September 7th, 2006
2:50pm] |
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If you read this, even if i don't speak to you often,
post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want,
it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.
(Then, post this to your journal. To see what people remember about you.)
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[Thursday
August 31st, 2006
5:13pm] |
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these kids have made my life pretty ill. and i love them. every single one with all my heart!
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[Monday
August 28th, 2006
8:15am] |
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today is the official last day of summer.
i can't believe what i've waited for all year is already over.
this summer was filled with some fucking amazing times.
and i've met so many great people that i will be friends with for a while.
last weekend was a great way to end the summer.
friday i slept at amanda's house and we went to john's party with everyone
then checkers house for a margarita party with cross the line & the midget.
saturday my parents were gone for the night so danielle & amanda stayed over.
matt came over for a little bit and watched sixteen candles
oh. and the girls went for a midnight swim. it was ridiculously cold.
i couldn't be more excited about school tomorrow.
senior year is finally here, in a brand new buliding, with my best friends.
friday is amanda's 18th birthday, pretty much a two day celebration spilling over into saturday
i'm pretty ecstatic about the festivities that will commence.
saturday is listen up, shoot ya wounded, & kings at the qvcc.
i'm assuming it will be a good time as usual
i feel like doing one of those 'you mean the world to me' picture posts.
so look for that in the next few days.
yeah. no wonder i never update this thing. pointless ramblings.
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[Monday
August 21st, 2006
11:16pm] |
Ask me 1 question for each of the following:
1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. You
No matter how rude, sexual, or confidential.
Then post this in your journal and see what questions you get asked!
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[Monday
August 14th, 2006
11:46pm] |
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Comment this journal and...
1. I’ll respond with something random about you
2. I’ll challenge you to try something
3. I’ll pick a color that i associate with you
4. I’ll tell you something i like about you
5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I’ll ask you something i’ve always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours
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